Well, in canadian society, it is now a huge faux pas to smoke anywhere in public, even lineups for the bus.

I think some people just take their "need" to smoke way too far. It isnt a giant inconvenience in my eyes to go outside to smoke, whether its in the sun or in the rain.

It has come to my attention that whatever is written in my blog can be found on Google. For example, my last post contained the name of the company I am currently working for and a comment regarding it. The head of marketing here asked me to remove it, 18 hours after I had posted it.

Very disturbing if companies are doing stuff like that, and can see everything in my blog due to search engines.

Well peeps, Its been a long time since I blogged last. Many things have happened, good and bad,

Unfortunately I lost my former job (The POS Company) due to the unfortunate events that took place. Lets just say it will be harder for me to trust others in the future.

Because of this, I was also forced to moved out of my fabulous Yaletown condo.

I am living back with my mother, but thats not really all so bad.


I'm buying a brand new laptop tuesday, a really nice HP DV 9825NR.

This weekend I'm heading to Seattle and Portland, seeing "The General" and Kevin. It's been over 2 years since i've been to Seattle...so I am really looking forward to this trip.

Otherwise, just looking for an apartment in Downtown Vancouver. Need to get out of langley sooner rather than later.

If you haven't yet, GO SEE THE IRON MAN MOVIE.



Best movie i've seen in years. Robert Downey Jr IS Tony Stark. It was almost as if the role was written for him, it was so flawless.

I'm soooo excited after seeing it. Iron Man is my favorite superhero since way back. in 04' I went as him for halloween.

Was playing around with the photos from then, and look at who has jetboots!! :D

I can't believe I'm going to say this and actually mean it, but I'm happy.

I have a beautiful condo in yaletown. I took the master bedroom, it has a giant closet, awesome floor to ceiling windows and a great view of the street corner where the boy hookers stand. LOL.

My bathroom is even bigger than the main bathroom. ack!

My new career choice is going very well. Tonight I am currently on my first on call shift. Every 5 weeks we have to be on call for emergencies for 4 days, 7pm-7am. We get paid extra depending on how many calls you get in the night. My boss said he made an extra $16,000 last year just in on call shifts (!!!!)

They also gave me a work phone, a Blackberry Pearl. Not sure how I feel about it yet, I'm so used to T9 and am still a bit in love with Sony Ericsson phones. We also all get our own Dell laptops (fully loaded) in march. Awesome.

I need to get back into my hobbies that I've neglected such as djing/mixing, video games, graphic/web design etc. I made a new mixshow (available below) that has a bunch of new tracks im digging right now.

I'm mega obsessed with Kylie's new album. I've had most of the tracks for almost a year (when they leaked ages ago) and I'm even more infatuated with it now.

Love: In My Arms, Like A Drug, The One, 2 Hearts.
Notsomuch: Wow (yawn)

I think I need to find better ways to spend my free time. Like maybe working out or something. It's been a long time since i've been able to say i'm happy with how my life is. I don't know if I'm just hard on myself or what... but it really, really, really bothers me that I'm so lonely and single. It will be 4 years this october since I've had a boyfriend. September 2006 was the last time I've actually been intimate with another guy.

It always makes me question myself, is there something wrong with me that I need to change...that I just can't see? I'm always "out there" looking to meet new people. To even be able to take a guy out for dinner seems way too hard...even if i'm paying!!!

No matter how successful my life becomes...that always seems to be the challenge I can never overcome -- being lonely.

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DJ Whitnay's 'How Does It Feel In My Arms' Mixshow

1. Taylor Dayne - Beautiful (Hex Hector's Vocal Mix)
2. Matchbox Twenty - How Far We've Come (Rosario & Craig J Rock Royalty Vocal Mix)
3. Janet Jackson - Feedback (Moto Blanco Full Vocal Mix)
4. Kylie - In My Arms (Chris Lake Vocal Mix)
5. Kylie Minogue - The One (Thunder's Extended Original Version)
6. Shirley Bassey - Get This Party Started (Chris Cox Anthem Mix)
7. Spice Girls - Say You'll Be There (TheeWerqnBtches Innuendo Club Mix)
8. Amy Winehouse - Rehab (Axwell Mix)
9. Robyn - With Every Heartbeat (Voodoo And Serano Remix)
10. Duran Duran ft JT & Timberland - Nite Runner (Diva Nation Remix)
11. Justin Timberlake Ft Beyonce - Until The End Of Time (Mike Rizzo Global Club Mix)
12. Natalie Imbruglia - Glorious (Bimbo Jones Remix)
13. Timbaland ft. OneRepublic - Apologize (Jjms Club Mix)
14. Kylie Minogue - 2 Hearts (DJ MichaelAngelo Does Almighty Mix)

Right Click, Save As... Download DJ Whitnay's 'How Does It Feel In My Arms' Mixshow

Well, things are going well!

Work is fast paced, and sometimes a bit stressful, but a good job with good pay. Found a place downtown in yaletown with Zach and move in Saturday!

Pics:






Also happy to hear from my friend Kevin who has been away for some time. Glad to hear he's doing well and keeping out of trouble!

Wow, when it rains down love, it pours. :D

I stopped going to my job at DHL at the beginning of the month. I knew for a while it wasnt the right place for me. Didn't make much money, and seemed fairly dead end. Two weeks later, had a call from a company I had applied to a long time but couldnt go for an interview due to time restraints.

After calling back and going to the interviews, they decided to hand me the job after looking for the right candidate for months!!!

The company is called Vivonet which is in the business of retail and restaurant Point of Sale hardware and software. We have a completely customizeable and secure software called Halo which is used with the touch screen winxp terminals for restaurants and retail companies in order to quickly and effiecently input orders either for straight sale, or to be sent to a kitchen, etc.

So far, i've been setting up terminals and testing hardware and software making sure they work correctly for customers. Its pretty fun. Will eventually covering more bases and answering customer inquiries when time allows. Best part is, it pays very nicely, and salary! woot!

Otherwise, not too much has gone on. Wrote a letter to Kevin the other day hoping he is doing ok in there. Staying at my moms til Feb 1st, then plan to move downtown hopefully with Zach (DJ Zach Shore) and get a nice townhouse or something! (cuz I can afford that now!)

Can't wait to come down to seattle. I have been putting off getting a new copy of my birth certificate as they are changing the format as of Jan 1st, 2008. Hoping to be able to make a trip down there by the end of the month.

The guy Dave that I had a crush on a while back but seemed to totally pull away...well, its a little mysterious. I started recieving messages in my Honesty Box on facebook. For those that dont know, when you send a msg with it, it hides who the sender is. A person claiming to be Dave has been messaging me telling me he's shy and stuff... and it just seems odd to me why he wouldnt just come right out and message me.

Right before I got my new job, I think I really hurt a friend that I didn't mean to. Danny if you're reading this, I'm sorry if I seemed cold when you told me about your dream. I wasn't in a happy place and misdirected it at you and I didn't mean to. Hopefully you still want to talk to me sometime.

Happy Holidays Everyone!

So, I've been feeling a bit happier/more positive lately.

I've been trying to have fun and enjoy life instead of sleeping it away.

So in a reprise of my fabulousness of costume creation, i dawned the 5L of Sunset Blush once again... Oh yes, Ms. Franzia was back with a vengence. Started at a restaurant steamworks, stopped in at Lick for Topher's birthday. Ugh. How did he get so god damn hot and beefy? Good thing i was wearing the box when he was giving me lap dances. haha.

Then in a limo to Section 3, where i just wanted to leave and dragged my box over to the odyssey. It was fun to have so much attention for the costume, even moreso than last time!

I arrive at the O with mostly welcome reception, except for those i knocked out of the way with the costume. haha. fuck i'm a scunt sometimes.

So, i take my jacket off and make room for my 5L of nectar on the dancefloor. I then proceed to take over the stage with my corrogated goodness.

At this point i was dancing and having a good time. Then I looked down and saw a pair of sailors making out.

At this point i realized that it was this boy i've had a crush on forever, named Dave. The other day i sent him a msg and laid it right out flat how i felt. He seemed to take it happily and seemed to have an interest in perhaps seeing what happens.

For his birthday, I had bought him this special stainless steel ice cream spoon. I took it in to get his name engraved on it, cuz i knew how much he loved ice cream.

So while I sort of not-watched the mad make out session continue, of course all these upset thoughts are filling my head. I continued to dance anyway attempting to make the best of the situation.

They left. Probably because Dave knew i saw him.

I picked up my box off the stage floor and walked out of the bar.

walked up and down the back streets of the west end thinking to myself. Trying not to let negativity get to me.

Then I realized...

I havemt had sex since last labour day.

and this weekend...is the 4th year of my being single. When trevor left me.

Right now, I feel like I could just cry. Cry forever. Cry until someone cared. Cry until maybe, someone mattered and cared about me like I care about them.

But I dont.

Why? maybe because i'm used to unfortunate circumstance infiltrating my life on a regular basis. Maybe because I dont show my emotions anymore. Maybe cuz I just dont care anymore. but thats a lie.

Honestly, I love who I am these days. I'm fairly good looking... I'm kind, think im funny, nice, loving, caring, honest...

I just dont understand why people with such qualities like myself are overlooked and are destined to be lonely.

I remember in XY magazine years ago, there was this quote...

"Gay life is a sad, dark depressing journey filled with overzealous adventures with drugs and booze, attempting to forge a greatness in the universe, however destined and doomed to being lonely."

Is it wrong to want to be loved?

fuck, I dont even know where to start...

Well...its sure been a while since i've updated.

I'm working for DHL Express, you know the mustard yellow and red courier company.



unfortunatly i've been severely depressed lately and missed a lot of work. I doubt they're going to keep me around much longer because of it, but I'm trying my best.

I have an apartment in downtown vancouver with my friend david and its funny because its the same building that Graham used to live in.

I'm working very hard to get my birth certificate and picture ID as soon as possible because i really want to visit all you guys down south that I miss.

Kind of saddened that my best friend is gone at the end of the week for an "extended vacation". I already find myself waiting for the day he returns.

I guess thats all. Drop me a line sometime. I miss ya guys.

Mike

Leo: (24 July-23 August)
From the safety of your womb you sit and think. And think some more. Then you remember... Nostalgia creeps in and you’re suddenly recalling with intensity the pain of the one that got away, the thing you lost or the fact you’re too hidden or removed from the parade of life. Is something missing? Emotions now are old; remember that. Under Mercury retrograde what you’re thinking and how you’re feeling are on re-play, which is why it’s all “deja-vu” - have you notice yet? Chances are even the people you meet and the scenarios you play into now are all old material. You’re walking in a dream. The Full Moon at the weekend helps you get out of your swirling feelings and back to work or back-in-your-body and health matters keep you grounded and focused. By all means remember the best, just don’t get lost longing for loose ends, or rewinding your regrets, or you risk being ravelled up in the reel of yesterday’s movie and forget you’re the Star in your current incarnation.

DJ Whitnay's 'Found Somebody That Could Be The One' Mixshow Tracklisting:

1. Deborah Cox - Everybody Dance (Offer Nissim Mix)
2. Young Love - Find A New Way (Dave Aude Club Remix)
3. Fall Out Boy - This Aint A Scene Its An Arms Race (Jason Nevins Rock Dance Mix)
4. Gwen Stefani - 4 In The Morning (Jacques Lu Cont's Thin White Duke Mix)
5. Rihanna- Umbrella (Jody Den Broeder Lush Mix)
6. Mariah Carey - The One (Widelife Club Mix)
7. Stevie Nicks - Stand Back 2007 (Tracy Young Mix)
8. Nelly Furtado - Say It Right (Junior Vasquez Mix)
9. Leana - I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight (Solar City VS DJ Rico Electro Anthem Remix)
10. Kylie Minogue - In My Arms (Popstars Extended Mix)

Duration: 74:35 Size: 102 MB Download (right click, save as: login: crack password: iswhack)DJ Whitnay's 'Found Somebody That Could Be The One' Mixshow

I never thought i'd EVER say this, but I miss the odyssey.

Well, I havent written a "Real" post in sometime, and I think its mostly because I didnt want to write out how unfavorable my life has become.

I lost my job back in April at Full Tilt Poker. I recently found out that the bitch HR woman that fired me also got fired. Karma sure impresses me.

Thus, I've been stuck in Langley with my mother. Langley is so far from Vancouver, its not even funny. Walking to the border is only 20 blocks away.

I've had a few interviews at different places, The Hospital, Squirrel, but all of these places literally have 75 people to interview, and like 3 positions. This is utterly ridiculous, and I refuse to fight 74 people for a job.

I have been in contact and had a meeting with a placement agency called AppleOne. It went very well, and was offered two jobs, one at eBay and the other at DHL. eBay starts at $16/hr but i highly doubt i will be allowed to work for an eBay company again. DHL starts at $13 which isnt so bad.

The catch is that you have to do these online tests to test math skills, office/xp skills, etc and you must get 70% on all of them. Thankfully I have done so (with a little help from Graham on the math test), so I will phone the woman I spoke to and hopefully be in the training class for either eBay or DHL on the 16th.

Thats me in a nutshell right now. Pretty bored.

Leo: (24 July-23 August)
Mercury spins retrograde giving you ample time to rethink anything you’re not completely sure about. A mass of loose ends, worries and troublesome emotions are just outside your door – are they trying to get in or have you packed them up ready to take out with the trash? Let’s hope the latter. You get to do that now – forget, forgive and move on...but only when you can stop dwelling on old hurts, old childhood traumas and the Mother you never had, lost, or want. Yes, it all comes back to Mother/Family somehow, somewhere this three-week period. But safety and security along with the nest of your dreams is just that – yours. It’s up to you now, Leo. Find your womb, your velvety soft place of safety. Recreate the sanctity of your aura space. Withdraw to regroup. Expect changes in your financial picture and social circles. You may have to let go of one LONG cycle, in order to truly achieve a higher position, more money and a greater sense of self-esteem. But to lose one thing is to gain a whole lot more. Guaranteed.

Living in Langley is as boring as I remember.

taking two different anti biotics and doing a lot of sleeping.

and...yeah

thats it.

I have been unemployed for 2 months, and denied by many.

I move back to langley in 2 days. Moving in with mother.

I have got a bad skin disease/infection called Folliculitis. Its not pretty.

Deep folliculitis
Types of deep folliculitis include:


* folliculitis Boils and carbuncles. These occur when hair follicles become deeply infected with staph bacteria. A boil usually appears suddenly as a painful pink or red bump about 1/2 inch in diameter. The surrounding skin also may be red and swollen. Within 24 hours, the bump fills with pus. It grows larger and more painful for five to seven days, sometimes reaching golf-ball size before it develops a yellow-white tip that finally ruptures and drains. Boils generally clear completely in about two weeks. Small boils usually heal without scarring, but a large boil may leave a scar. A carbuncle is a cluster of boils that often occurs on the back of the neck, shoulders or thighs, especially in older men. Carbuncles cause a deeper and more severe infection than a single boil. As a result, they develop and heal more slowly and are likely to leave scars.


I really dont know why i bother trying anymore.

Leo: (24 July-23 August)
There is such a thing as having too much fun. Then again, there’s such a thing as not having enough. Which way is your pendulum swinging? The Full Moon amps up your hunger for romantic adventure, fun and games and anything but work. Finances could be strained if you’re throwing hard cash at quick fixes, but since you’re the sign of luxury and five-star quality, I know it’s pointless to play parent and tell you to watch your spending habits? Are you expecting too much from friends? After all you’re not dating them – or are you? Where are the boundaries? If in doubt, channel stress into your continued quest for more – a bigger audience, a wider reach, a larger scope, a bigger vision. Size matters, so don’t play it small or hide in your shell. You were born to be seen.

Leo: (24 July-23 August)
Keep questing ahead and ignore the small mediocre details of your daily grind. You get points now for vision, the future possibilities and the dreams and schemes you hope, optimistically, to reach. It’s all in the stretching, which you should remember to do regularly (cats, the symbol of your sign teach us this well). Get the blood moving and you’re agile and ready to spring into action at a moments notice. With so much travelling/studying you’re planning or already doing, with so many things that MAY pan out, with so many new things you want to try, you’ll need your brain in gear – so in your imagination and daydreams never fail and ALWAYS win. It’s the first step in any creative visualization. Your future is constructed presently so get carried with the best and most noble beliefs and hopes.

"In a world of confusion, hurt, pain, anger and destruction...there is still only one thing that matters...if you don't have it, are you really alive?"